I have never been this exhausted physically and emotionally in my whole entire life. I just want to sleep and cry. I just lost my best friend today. JUST. LIKE. THAT. But anyway, I knew he wouldn’t fight for us. In a way, I’ve expected this, that he will “respect” my decision to end the friendship because that’s how he really is.
Compared to any break-up, this for me is probably the worst. I can feel something piercing in my heart. I lost him once but this time, it hurts more. Because I know I probably lost him for really and things will never be the same again. It hurts so much to lost your best friend, the one who knows you better than anyone else in the world. But people come and go. I have to accept it.
But as terrible as the feeling is, something inside of me feels hopeful and comfortable. I love him with all my heart and I probably always will but I should love and respect myself even more so I decided to let go. This feeling of uncertainty pains and excites me at the same time. I don’t know what comes after this but I’ll do my best to make it great.
Sa totoo lang, minsan naghahanap ako ng rason kung bakit ko kailangan mangausap ng tao. I mean, magiisip ako ng bagay na kailangan ko from them pero wala akong maiisip. I think it just goes to show na wala akong business with this person. Kumbaga wala siyang pakinabang sakin kaya wa akong masabi sakaniya. Ang funny lang.